there's this woman in england ...her name is yvonne sullivan...she was married in september 2006 and shortly after getting married she became pregnant...her unborn child was diagnosed as anemic and needed regular blood transfusions while in the womb...
last july she went to the hospital...she went into labor...and shortly after entering the hospital...she gave birth to her son clinton...clinton was born two months premature....and he was born with a blood infection..he died shortly after his birth from septic shock....
his mother sffered from blood poisoning and blacked out after being told her son had died....her condition worsened...and she went into a coma and was placed on life support...her husand, dominic kept a vigil by her bedside...holding her hand...
washing and combing her hair...talking to her about family and friends..talking to her about her 8 year old son....she had given birth to from a previous marriage...
after being in a coma for two weeks...doctors at the hospital started talking to dominic about turning off the life support...domic grabbed her hand and started yelling at her...dominc had already had to tell her son ryan that his brother clinton had died and that his mother might not survive...ryan told him ...he's be mad at the doctors if they let his mommy go to heaven....so domini told her to start breathing now...and stop messing around....when he finished his rant..and left the room to get some air...
he came back into the room two hours later...and yvonne started to breath on her own....slowly she came out of the coma...spent another week in the hospital...and was released...recovery was slow....but she has since made a full recovery...
before getting pregnant yvonne had been a dance instructor and last week...she taught her first dance class...since being in the coma....she talked about remembering how her husband had yelled at her and how she never liked it when he yelled at her...she said when she heard this...soemthing inside her clicked and she began to fight...
the doctors call this a miracle...and i was thinking about my last post...about blessings and miracles..i think what i was trying to say...is...this is an easy call..woman in a coma...husband yells at her....she comes out of coma...and remembers her husband yelled at her and she didn't like it....so she recovered...so...it's safe to say....God was all over this...
but...
what happens if yvonne doesn't survive...and...what about the miracle that clinton needed?...
the thing is...i get it...each second...each breath of air...for all of us...is part of God's miracle..joy and suffering are part of our existence...people die...it's part of God's plan for us....whether it's in a tsunami...a hurrican....a terrorist attack or quietly in bed surrounded by family and friends...surviving a disaster or dying in one is ...part of God's plan....maybe we're supposed to understand...but it's safe to say...most times when the experience involves joy...we praise God..but when the experience involves...suffering...or death...we don't always....
see that's the thing for me...in my life...i've experienced some rather harrowing experiences...and i've survived them...and while i praise God for my existence....i also accept his plan for my life to end when the time comes...that's not to say...i'm not going to go out fighting...becasue let's face it...i'm difficult that way..but i will for the most part understand...and even accept..
so when i'm stranded on the side of the highway...and nothing happens but a tow truck pulls up and tows my car out of harms way...less than 5 minutes after my car breaks down...it's a blessing...and it's a blessing nothing happened to me....which is the same blessing i get...second by second ...minute by minute each day...it's the same blessing we all get second by secon...minute by minute each day....
i struggle with the thought that God looked down upon me and thought...ok ray today is your day for a miracle...so today your get your miracle and someone else has to suffer ...or die....that's way way way too selfish a thought for me to accept....or even to acknowledge...instead i believe...each of us...have these blessing in our lives...and in our exisistence...both in living and dying...
it has taken me a long time to start to see the hidden messages in scripture...in the things that happen...in the miracles i see and read about...and while i feel sadness in the things that happen that cause suffering and death....i chose to accept this is all part of God's plan...some of which i think i undertand...some of which i don't.....but...becasue Jesus is my savior...i have faith...
tonights music....
leeland..."yes, you have"...
"with Your love You set me free,
three nails gave me liberty.
so i’ll sing Your praise,
my God, i’ll sing Your praise.
oh, with Your love,
You forgave my sin,
forgot my past,
and brought me back again.
so i’ll sing Your praise
i’ll sing Your praise, yeah..."
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